My cousine's wedding was held on 20th Dec, 2025 in lunar calendar. He is one years younger than me, but worked for many years. It's not unexpected he would get marry this soon.

In China, marriage is like a must option for everyone, no matter we like it or not. There are already too many videos about how to handle parents's press of marriage. Marriage sounds impossible for those never being loved who are lack of love and would be a burden for those blind lovers who can't even raise themselives.

I used to believe LOVE in high school. At that time, driven by teenage hormones, I fell in love with several girls. But all the stories ended with unrequited love. I am not a cold-heart man. But only being cautious enough can I have a peaceful life, no matter get married or not. Even a little mistake can ruin the path of expected life, of which marriage is very influential.

Many middle and high school classmates sharing their planed wedding day in Wechat moments made me feel like my life postpone a lot compared with theirs. I still consider myself as a kid. Maybe their roles in life already changed few years before, so they can get married then become a husband or wife, and a father or mother in the future.

Of course I feel happy for them. It must be very lucky to marry the one you love and being company with you for a long time, which is what I cann't meet and expect. Maybe I'll lucky enough in the next ten years to meet a girl that I love and loves me. If the answer is no, it wouldn't be a problem. I have been single for a very long time and it's not a problem for me to being alone in the rest of my life.

With the age grows, my feeling to female have changed a lot. I even wrote some poems to girls in middle and high school.